And my blood starts pumpin' and my heart goes jumpin'

Mauna Kea = Paradise!

posted by Ray on Aug 26, 2009 1:47am

So after two amazing shows in Japan, and a few weeks off, we're back at the practice space tightening up a few songs before we head back in the studio to finish up the record.

Getting a little bit of time off was good. Spent a week on Big Island. What a beautiful place. Paradise on Earth! Miss it already. Mauna Kea, thanks for letting me and my wife look at the stars...

Ray

http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/ray/mauna-kea-paradise

 

CHEEEEHOOOOO!

I know that post was like a month ago and it's sad that I just found out about it now but it is so epically awesome that Ray came to Hawaii. And Not just Hawaii, but the Big Island (also called Hawaii) but thats the island I live on!! I wish I knew they came at the time they visited, I would've stalked them! Lol. Maybe not, it's be rude, but till, how awesomely awesome would that be if I ran into them? Well the picture that was taken was from Hilo Bay on the East Side and I live on the West. So yeah. Chee! Mauna Kea is so cools! Evewn though I haven't been there for almost 4 years. It is really nice. I wonder if they went up there. They probably did. And yeah, Hawaii is like on of the best places to see the star. It's wierd though cause a lot of people wish they could see them but us, we just don't care or bother to look up, we're always looking down =( But when I'm hanging out with all of my firends if if for any reason a lot of my family got togeter we'd always look at the stars and it's amazing. Especially late in the middle of the night. You know, sometimes it makes you think about how it was all created, and what could be living up there or what it's like. But yeah, YAY for mcr for coming to Hawaii!

Today me and my friends went to the 3rd volleyball game of the season, Kohala Cowgirls vs. Honoka'a Dragons. It was a loss. JV 1-2 and Varsity 2-1. We mainly went to just to cruz and hang out. It was me Anjulee, Delani, Brisa, Sharisse, Johnny, Shane, Saian, Andre, Alex, Daryl, Kiani, Kiana, Kawai, and some other people but mainly them. It was just cruzing, went to the diner and hung out there for a while, acted like a retard, played on the elementary playground, pretend to jack a golfcart, haha. Almost watched a fight. Then we took Kiani, Kawai, and Anjulee home. Then saw Andre and Shane walking and gave them a ride home. And I went back to my boring Grandma's house and missed out on a party at my aunty's house.

So today we had our 2009-2010 school wide bonding themed "The Real World". I never got to go to my freshman year school wide bonding because at the time I and my family went camping. Well from what I heard this year was better than last years. It was pretty fun. We started off in the gym and the student council did like the huge dance tribute thing for Michael Jackson and they danced to some of his songs. Then our guest speaker Augie T. talked to us. And Honestly, I have no clue what he was talking about, wasn't really paying attention but I laughed my ass off we he said some funny stuff. CJ, Justin, and Tita were called up and they had to do this chicken cluck for like a contest. After it was recess then our sophomore class of 2012 went to the field for the out door activities. We were divided into three groups and my groups first activity was to fit like 22 people on like a 24" by 24" piece of wood, I forgot what those things were called. Like a platform thingy that you put boxes on, eh. Anyways, the next one was where we had the groups make like a barrier and we had to push this huge ass ball over to the other side of them. It was hectic. Like D went up against Jory and Jory freakin' rammed him with the ball and D went flying backwards. It was kind of fun, but life threatening lol. Then we put Austin and Kristine on the top and of the ball and pushed them. The last one was where we had to get from one side of this "spider web" to the other and you can only go through it. That one was a little unorganized but it was alright, people went flying through these holes, nothing big, haha. Then our class went into the library to talk about and discuss our responsibilities for this school year, Homecoming, Spirit Week, and Sophomore Hop. I though It'd be boring, but it wasn't at all, it was pretty interesting cause I missed out on all this stuff last year and no teachers talked and planed for us or told us what to do, our class president, vice president, treasurer, and secretary ran it. We then went to the gym and did a few more activities, this one obstacle relay race, human knot, and a bunch of stuff, mostly team building activities. Then we played duck duck goose. It was weird because we all kind of forgot how to play that. And this next one down in Mr. Kealoha's class was kind of boring and I played with a construction cone and a hula hoop the whole time and singing Michael Jackson with Ciera. After we played head up 7up. We forgot how to play that too. Then it was lunch. CHICKEN! And finally the water. I came to school not planning on getting wet but knew I was anyway. It started off with three garbage cans full of water balloons. It was fuckin war. All you see if balloons flying at you in every direction, it was awesome. Delani and I stole a bunch of water balloons and sat by my cousin Ikaika. That's where my water fun began. A bunch of my friends just come running up to me and flying water balloons. Then they got the fire engine to come and shoot us down with water. And then the slip and slide. It was fuckin awesome. It's just really cool seeing a crap load of people running down the hill and sliding. And I'm just standing there watching all the boys running each other over and then all my friends are pushing me down the thing and by then I didn't give a fuck I went on that thing like 50 times. I got all grassy and muddy, it was fun. I wish we'd have 2 school wide bondings, one in the beginning and one at the end of the year. Speaking of school, mid-quarter report cards came in, US History - B, English 2 - C, Geometry - D, Biology - C, AVID - B, Keyboarding - A, and Spanish 1 - B.

Oh I forgot about this one. We acutally have a lot of pictures on my friends myspace.

So I wake up at like 5am to get ready to catch the bus to Waimea at 6:45am and I end up missing it barely and my friend Anjulee is waiting at home like a dummy and Ema slept it. So I'm there by myself like an idiot then walk down to Anjulee's house and Ema does later and thankfully her mom takes us to Waimea. So we hang out at the park and around town from 8am to maybe 4 or 5pm. Haha, not really exciting. But it was. We ran around the field and playground like little kids and walked to starbucks, played with stuffed animals in Foodland, went back to the park, walked to McDonalds and the Deli for lunch, back to the park, and then to the food court. And We miss the fuckin bus back to Kohala which was why we were in Waimea for so long cause we had to wait for someone to pick us up. And then we see our former classmate, well, we went to the same school but he graduated c/o 09, Conn, and we're all like DUDE! YOU'RE OUR PLAN B FOR A WAY HOME!. Nah but it was nice to see him and talk a little. And thats that.

And another.

So today was the opening of the Gym, after 3 years they finally fixed and reopened it after the huge earthquake destroyed it in 2006. I almost didn't go, it started at like 10am and I slept in until my friends and borthers kept calling me cause they were all looking for me and the park and I was home sleeping and so they forced me down there and I'm glad I went because it was pretty fun. So I just hung out there with my friends Ema, Sharisse, Brisa, Daryl, Anjulee, Shane, Johnny, and Shyanne. We freakin stayed there till 6pm doing nothing but being bored then decided to walk over the Ema's house and Daryl and Shyanne had to leave. So we all get to her house and we're bored and start watching stupid ass videos on youtube and eating all their food, actually it was just Shane and it wasn't really nice because they don't have a lot of food. So me and Sharisse get bored and go outside and everyone follows then Ema's stupid brother Daniel comes with Cody, Isaiah, and Tyler and they're burning and smoking and thinking they're cool cause they're drinking whisky, kinda stupid. But yeah. That day was fun while it lasted. Wish I could be more enthusiastic.

Yet another one.

So we had our traditional Relay For Life and even though its a really sad thing and a really great thing walking for people with cancer, its traditional that everyone comes just to hang out, this year it was at Kamehameha Park. So yeah all my friends and I decide to go to hang out and try to have a really great time. It was pretty well at the beginning but it turned out pretty crappy. I partially blame lame ass parents. But yeah, ended up going hame by myself at 1:30am. I'm sorry to say but a few of my friends were a little stuck up and left me behind, my other friends had to go home cause their lame ass parents, and I was stuck with people I never really wanted to be stuck with. It was kinda crappy.

Heres another story I didn't get to till now. It's not very long, just to the point.

So this was only the second school dance I've ever been to in my life. The first was Sophomore Hop last year and nothing compared to that, first dance and it was the awesomest. Anyways yeah, the Welcome Back Dance was alright, pretty fun. The only sucky part was that we had no DJ cause our school is fuckin' poor and the seniors did it and they kept changing the songs in the middle of it and it got really annoying. But over all it was alright.

Never got the chance to post this story either. But i think my prospective on this school year changed a little. Like the classes are still unconvenient, but the people in my classes aren't that bad. The olny class I really hate is U.S. History, I have the most stupidest people in my class. And the thing that makes me the maddest about the freshmen is that the wierdos stole all our hangout spots and all of them, I mean theres a fuckin crap load of them, are all hanging out on the hallway railings whre all the awesome seniors hungout last year. grrr.

Today was my first day back to school as a sophomore! And it started off by waking up at 7:30am and being late for school. I got there right when the first bell rang. I never had a hard time finding my classes this time. It was really weird being back there and with all the new freshmen and no more of the old seniors c/o 09. I think it was alright, but when 2^nd period came around I was sick of it. I have a feeling it might be a really shitty year. Last year was the shit, which was why I was really looking forward to this year, but it really sucks so far. And all the people I have in my classes are so sucky and not chilled or cool or fun like the other ones last year. They're not convenient either. Talk about Sophomore Slump. I guess I jinxed myself. And with Lexi gone, everything already feels crappy. Walking around without her, it's like we're missing something really important, like me and Anjulee are only 2/3 full. I have a feeling its going to be a really crappy year. Hopefully it feels better by the end, I don't wanna just go on and miss one year of high school. But it was alright seeing everyone again. It was so funny watching the freshmen just group up in one tiny area right in the middle of the hallway and tagging along with other people. I don't think we were like that. And we did not tag along with any upper classmen. Especially not us. We did our own thing and people started to come to us. Freshman year was definitely the best year I've ever had. I told Brisa and Sharisse to make it last. Cause it's one hell of a year to just throw down the toilet and not enjoy. I got my iPod back from Andre today, one good thing. I think I have the crappiest classes. But anyways, walking around the school hallways again was so weird. I hope everything lightens up and I get along wit the people in my class. Last year it was really easy to talk to everyone in them and get along with them. Thank God I switched out of Photography and into Keyboarding. As much as I love photography, I hated the teacher and didn't have a camera anyways.

 

Haha. Even though this was 2 months ago, it was pretty epic and I never got the chance to post!

Saturday morning I got ready to go to Kona then went to pick up Anjulee. I went to my eye appointment and we went to the theaters. When we got there we saw Daniel outside smoking. We went up to him, talked a little, and then the three of us went inside looking for the Ema and Sharisse. We turned the corner to the candy section and everyone is there sitting on the couch eating candy they didn't even pay for yet. Andre, Jacob, Sharisse, Ema, Keahi. We paid for our stuff and then go to theater and we're all in there running around like maniacs. Then we go in to Harry Potter and no one is in there and the entire time we were there we couldn't shut up. Everyone was talking. Then Sam came up. This was the seating: Jacob, Daniel, Keahi, Andre, Sharisse, Me, Ema, Anjulee, and Sam. We tried to watch it. We all watched, talked, watched, talked, and flew popcorn. . And when the hand came out of the water everyone jumped and screamed. All the stupid little 8^th graders in the row in front of us were so annoying. Those idiots got yelled at by someone. When the movie was finished we went into K-Mart and ran around that place like weirdoes. And then all of a sudden Andre, Jacob, and Keahi disappear. Then we see Daniel running to the front of the store and we're all like "WTF?" The bus was here. And we almost missed it. Sam went home and the rest of us caught the bus. Talked a little then fell asleep. Keahi on one row, Jacob across from him. Andre in the next, Daniel across. Ema in the next row, I was across from her. And Sharisse in the next with Anjulee across from her. It was like 3pm when we left. Then Sharisse yells, "PARTY AT EMA'S HOUSE!" So we all went home when the bus dropped us off. Grandma picked me up because she saw me walking up the hill. I went with Sharisse back to Ema's house and Brisa was already there. Not too long after Anjulee walked over. We watched YouTube videos and then set up Sharisse's tent while waiting for Andre guys to come. We put the tent on the balcony then threw it off the edge into the front yard. Andre, Jacob and Keahi came in his truck at about 7:30/8pm. We all kind of just hung around and Andre blasted his car radio and then a neighbor came and complained. I was getting kind of bored so I played with Andre's ukulele. Justin Thompson is driving around Ainakea in his truck and acting stupid so Andre, Daniel, Anjulee and I chase him around Ainakea and then to the park passing a cop while going maybe 35-40mph in a 25mph zone. We got back to Ema's and Jacob wanted to go to Lakeland to see his girlfriend. So Andre drove Jacob, Me, Anjulee and Daniel to Lakeland at about 9pm. Leaving Ema, Brisa, Sharisse, and Keahi there alone. On the way there we stopped on the road when it was going down hill and the truck was rolling up. On mountain road Jacob told us to look down at Waikoloa and it was shaped like a guitar. First time I ever heard or saw that. We started talking about books and Harry Potter and Eragon. We played the game where we put down all the windows and who ever was to complain first about the coldness loses. Andre and Daniel were complaining about it the whole time and Daniel put on his jacket. Jacob put his window up. Me and Anjulee was the only one who lasted the whole time. Anjulee's and Daniel's parents kept calling and pretty much from the time we left to the time we came back we made up some shit so we wouldn't get into trouble. We got to Lakeland and waited for a little while and I found a jacket in the truck and just put it on because it was freezing, I had no clue whose it was. We all had a cig except for Jacob. Then Jacob's girlfriend and cousin came out of the bushes. And then I found out I knew them from Waimea Middle School, her name was Kamalani and Maceo, I used to call him maggot, they were both really annoying. So there were two Kamalani's. I was playing Michael Jackson in Andre's truck and Daniel hated me and he'd always say, "Kamalani." just so that the two of us would look and he'd laugh. I lost my phone in the truck and everyone stopped what they were doing to help me look for it. After everyone gave up I found it. Then lost it again. It was really cold and we all wanted to leave already so Andre thought he'd be nice and take them home. He drove up the road and they said they're going the wrong way. They told him to turn around and he did then they said to go back up. So he went around and then they said that he went the wrong way and Andre gave up and dropped their asses off right where we met them. We went back to Waimea and Jacob bought us McDonalds. He bought 5 cheese burgers and 5 chicken burgers off the dollar menu. While ordering we took forever cause we were confused and the lady was confused and we couldn't see the menu and we were singing the "Genitals" song. I had one Cheese burger and Andre, Daniel, and Jacob ate the other 9 burgers. I thanked him for food because none of us ate anything except candy, not even the four at home. And they were pretty mad when they found out we had McDonalds and they all pretty much saved our asses from getting in trouble with the police and parents. Then we went to go put gas and Jacob paid for that too. We picked up this guy that Jacob and Andre used to work with and he had to sit in the back and he was freezing and got rained on. We talked about our weirdest dreams, I had a billion but I couldn't think of any then. We didn't come back till about 11:30pm/12:00am. They picked up Keahi and Andre and Jacob left. Andre has my iPod. Me, Anjulee, Ema, Sharisse, and Brisa were going to sleep in the tent outside but we kept talking and it was pouring. Then a huge hole ripped in the tent and we carried the tent into the house at 3am and everything was soaked. Ema made us some food and we went back to her room to go to sleep but didn't go to sleep till 5:30am. Woke up at 9 to go to church. Which was the first time I went since school, I hate it. Came back and watched The Slum Dog Millionaire. And we all tried on my colored contacts then watched YouTube till everyone eventually left.

 

I'm sooooooo super de duper sorry i haven't been on here in forever! i just don't have a computer. =[[[ i really miss all you guys and i feel like i've abandoned you all =[ i'm sorry. i how everyone is doing fine. i'll try and get to most of you as soon as possible.

as for me now, school finished today. and it was really sad actually, i don't want school to be over. this year was deffinately the best school year i ever had. and thats coming from me, a freshmen. haha. the seniors last day was yesterday and i'm going to miss them a lot cause i was really good friends with some of them. even though i never got the best grades ever i had the best time ever. haha that sounds lame. anyways, yeah, i can't wait till next year starts, but i don't want my high school years to go by so fast =[[[ well i have a lot of spare time this summer, if i don't need to go to summer school, and i guess i'm just going to hang out with everyone, and dare i say it, experiment. even though that sounds really bad in a way. shit. and now, one of my very very very best friends is moving and i'm so fuckin pissed off and sad. its sooo stupid cause when everr she makes me laugh, i start to cry and then she crys, and then everyone else cries and then they all get pissed off at me for making everyone cry. =[[[

UGH!!1 i'm babbaling too much.

I was ready to give up. Really, for the title of this post I was going to put, 'Today I Give Up'. But then I saw the picture of Gerard on my desktop wallpaper and it made me smile. Then I logged into buzznet and saw more pictures of the guys and thoughts and memories and everything that has happened to me because of them flooded through my head. Just that helped me get over what I just went through. I'm still hurt, but just from those few pictures I seen it brought me back to life and gave me so much hope and encouragement. Its kinda amazing how much this band has impacted on my life. Thats all I'm going to say.

I love you guys.

And some of the best friends I made through this band, I love you too. You're the greatest people on earth. Even if the community is going through so kind of crisis.

Aha just voted and wanted to say that Marina Lake, Taking Back Sunday, and supposedly My Chemical Romance and 30 Seconds To Mars are having a new album out this year and I'm excited! Aha I'm really bored sorry.
Um well I had kamehameha scholars this weekend. It wad pretty fun. We went East side to Puna.
We learned how to prepare an imu. A underground oven. And cook food. I worked in the kitchen. Aha it was pretty epic. We made haupia from scratch. We had to gather coconuts husk then grind them milk them and filter it. Haupia is just coconut milk and sugar and corn starch. Its really good.and well I guess ill explain more later since I'm typing all this on a phone

Holy shit.

Kay sorry, don't kill me, I know that 'Desolation Row' just came out last month but I miss them loads. I kept my cool all this time but I can't help it.  The forum is like dead. We keep trying to find different tthings to humor ourselves and the keep it alive but thats where I wnet just to go all out on MCR.

When DR came out I never knew how much I thursted for them. But to me, for some odd reason, that song is nothing to me. I liked the video just because I got to see the guys again after they went into hiding for like 9 months. 9 long freakin months without really hearing from them, besides TUA and Leathermouth.

But shit, they had to leave right when I needed them most. Yeah sure I had thier cds and stuff to listen to, I still do, but its not the same. And now, fuckin WB is removing it all from Youtube. Bitch.

Haha, but this is just a short, smallish, venting thing I guess.

I'm sure I'll be back here in a few days.

Shit. Of course, I was really hoping for BJ win. But he did. Shit. That was a real disappointment =[ I think it was an alright match, he seemed  really humble and everything, but he never really looked ready. But St. Peirre had his stradegy, he came prepared, he knew what to do, so I give him that. He was really good. BJ moved up to Peirre division to challenge himself, I think he wasn't ready.

 Lol it's wierd how I'm so into this because I'm not really, but I think it was pretty good.

To bad though for BJ. I really liked his entrance though. First he had the song "Hawaii '78" and then "E Ala E", both by Isreal Kamakawiwaole. It was really good. It kinda made me feel good since I've been so disconnected with my heritage and then to hear those songs and see BJ wearing a 'Hawaiian Unity' shirt, in Las Vegas, Nevada where like a bunch of my family and others of the same race there, made me feel really good for some reason. Idk why. Haha. Anyways.

Yes, "E Ala E" as soon as the match was over I went on the internet and listened to the song that I haven't heard in years. It made me cry. Really.

 

Anyways, well, good luck to St. Pierre in his up coming matches, and to BJ Penn, keep your head up. Keep The Faith. Malama pono, Ua mau ke ea o ka aina i ka pono, He Hawaii au mau a mau. Keep the mana. Aloha no.

I just need to say that Madina Lake is one of my favorite bands and I'm a little scared about hole Attics To Eden is going to turn out because this song is very... very... different? From the other stuff they've ever done.

The lyrics for "Never Walk Alone" By Madina Lake.
If you can't tell I wrote out the lyrics by what i heard so I'm not positive if they're correct and the parts where there's question marks i couldn't understand the words.

just imagine
what it's like to love
yourself from the inside out
imagine ??????????
you wake up
now you feel alive

cause you don't have to walk alone
you're not alone
i know
you don't have to hate the world
you don't have to walk alone
you're not alone
i know

you know its all in your mind
its how you see the world
behind your eyes
just imagine what its like
to sleep at night
with nothing on your mind
imagine
don't regret again
everything you done
just turned out right

cause you don't have to walk alone
you're not alone
i know
you don't have to hate the world
you don't have to walk alone
you're not alone
i know

you know i would do anything
wrap it up and give the world to you
when you think you've had enough
when you think the skies are falling down
just breathe

open up your heart to it
let the sun cover up the ??????????
in your mind

this is not who you are
??????????
??????????
??????????

scatter it on the ocean floor
let the earth clean it out
just breathe
just breathe
just breathe

Lol. Yeah, today, New Years Day, makes one year of me having a buzznet XP

OH MY GOD!!! THEY WERE HERE IN HAWAII!!! MCR, THEY WERE HERE!!! HOLY SHIT!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT JUST NOW I SAW THE POST BOB MADE ON THE SITE!!! THATS WHY I SAW THAT SCUBBA DIVING PICTURE AROUND!!! HOLY CRAP!!! I JUST GOT ALL EXCITED!!! AND BEFORE THEY SAID HAWAII WASN'T THERE PLACE WHICH MADE ME REALLY SAD, BUT THEY CAME HERE ON VACATION A LITTLE WHILE AGO!!! OMG!!! AND IT WAS BEFORE CHRISTMAS!!! WHICH WAS WHEN THEY CAME HERE LAST YEAR, THE SHOW I WENT TO, DECEMBER 14TH, 2007. HOLY SHIT I LIKE PISSED MY PANTS, NOT REALLY, BUT I'M LIKE UBBBER HAPPY LOL AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!!! I THINK ITS JUST THE FACT THAT THEY WERE ACTUALLY HERE EVEN THOUGH I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT LAST YEAR LOL. GOSH!!! WELL, SORRY FOR THIS, I'M JUST REALLY HAPPY. GOD I COULD'VE RUN INTO THEM WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING IT. BUT I DOUT IF THEY CAME TO MY ISLAND, THEY PROBABLY WENT TO O'AHU, I LIVE ON THE BIG ISLAND. HALEY!!! YOU MIGHT KNOW HOW I FEEL SINCE YOU'RE FROM HERE TOO, EXCEPT ON MAUI. ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!!! I'M JUST SO FREAKED OUT LOL.

With participation of frequent My Chemical Romance buzznet forum visitors, we all came with lyrics taken from different My Chem songs and put them together and made fun verses, I guess, with them. Enjoy the few that we created.

 

 

Honey Welcome to the Famous Drowning Lessons

 

Well let’s go back to the middle of the day that starts it all. We've only got one chance to put this at an end. Cause if you were here I’d never have a fear to keep on living. And if you take me down, we'll carry on. Cause we are all a bunch of liars tell me baby who do you wanna be? And we are all about to sell it cause it’s tragic with a capital T!! So take your gloves and get out, better get out while you can. And we can settle this affair; I'll expect you won't cry. Oh baby, don’t stop if I fall and don't look back. We'll love again, we'll laugh again, we'll cry again and we'll dance again. And I get a little shaken cause I live my life like this. So think happy thoughts and we'll fly home. So shut your eyes kiss me goodbye and say goodbye to the hearts you break. Wipe away those tears of blood. I can't begin to let you know just how I’m feeling. I'm trying; I’m trying, to let you know just how much you mean. And like the blade you stain, but you're beautiful to me. I'm not okay just like upon the screen. I hate the ending myself but it started with an alright scene. So when you go would you have the guts to say that we all wanna party when the funeral ends? What’s the worst thing I can say all teenagers scare the living shit out of me? So come one come all to this tragic affair your life will never be the same. So shut your eyes kiss me goodbye and know that I will never marry. All we are is bullets I mean this and I see you lying next to me awake and unafraid. And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard. We’ll carry on to the end so, so long and goodnight.

 

 

Hey Kid a Vampires’ Life Is Gonna Kill You

 

When I was a young boy in the middle of a restaurant they say "I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to put the spike in my heart". And if they get me and they are face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens. Here's my resignation I'll serve it in drag up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains. And I saw from above that in the middle of a gun fight in the center of a restaurant they say, "We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey.” and we'll hear the sound as you’re falling down in the middle of a gun fight. Like a bed of roses there are a dozen reasons in this gun. And when the lights all went out we watched our lives on the screen. Forget about the dirty looks because the hardest part of this is leaving you. Well I find it hard to say, so go on live your life. Wipe off that make-up what’s in is despair. So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose and sleep. Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands, drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands Romeo. I lost my fear of falling as pin pricks in the velvet catch our fall. And down we go to hell. So you better run like the devil cause they're never gonna leave you alone. They're never gonna get me, running away, and hiding with you. Would you have the guts to say "turn away"? Cause we are all a bunch of animals that never paid attention in school. So get out! Better get out, while you can. And tell me all about your problems I was killing before killing was cool. You're so cool. You're so cool! SO COOL! You're never gonna fit in much kid. But where’s your heart?!

 

 

It's Us Against The World

 

He calls the mansion not a house but a morgue. You've spun this chamber dry. Don't stop if I fall. I've been a bad motherfucker tell your sister I’m another because my lips are chapped and faded. At every hour goes the tic tock bang of monitors and I’m not okay, where's your heart? It's the tearing sound of love notes, cause this ain't living it's the hardest part these hands stained red. We could be perfect one last night I mean this forever. I will avenge blood! Blood, gallons of the stuff, drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands Romeo, I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed. And then we'll solve the mystery of laceration gravity and all the wounds that are ever gonna scare me think happy thoughts and walk away a savior watch my hero sell a car on TV. Oh motherfucker, if life ain't just a joke, then why am I out here on the other side of a jet black hotel mirror and I'm so not right in the brain. It isn't that much fun, staring down my father and you can cry if you want to I don't care we'll celebrate the end of things I’d encourage you're smiles, I’ll expect you won't cry and nothing else matters it’s just the hardest part of living. I never said id lie wait forever. This is how we like to do it in the murder scene in a hail of bullets when they rifle into your icy blues. Without a sound at the end of the world they're never gonna get me I’ll never let them hurt you, I promise. Who walks among the famous living awake and unafraid to be a joke and look we’ll all dance alone to the tune of your death. I'm shocked at what you're capable of and after all the blood that you still owe would you carry me to the end?

 

 

I Don't Love Vampires, They Scare The Living Shit Out Of Me

 

I'm taking back the life you stole; you'll never take me alive. But counting down the days to go to see a marching band in the best damn dress I own. This broken city sky all slashed and torn just like the hearse you die to get in again. You wanna see how far down I can sink? In the middle of a gun fight, in the center of switch blade fights. They gave us two shots to the back of the head your life will never be the same. And if I had the guts to crash the cemetery gates before I pull this trigger. Without a sound we'll all fall down in a hail of bullets. Imaginary wedding gown is leaving you. Pull the plug that we hold in our hearts, unapologetic apathy. The lust it commands we could fight it to the end. Would you have guts to take my fucking hand and settle up the score? You're never coming home. Bright lights that won't take a pistol as they stared us down. Straight from the hospital bed. They said all teenagers scare the booze I’m taking. When the lights all went out we ran from the cops in the dress your husband hates. I'm so far away from you, walking down the street where they can pump this venom gaping hole. I am not afraid but I miss you more than I did yesterday. I’m such an awful fuck. I gave you a bad mother fucker! This riddle of revenge will carry on, just like the match you strike to incinerate. You can say a prayer if you need to, carry me to the end.

 

 

Bury Me In Venom

 

Wait until it fades to black, don't stop. If I died we'd be together. Now I'm soggy from the chemo. So take your gloves and get out. How could you cry for the diamonds you ate? I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling, and as the blood runs down the walls I think I'll break this awkward silence. Pick up the phone fucker! And we'll love again; we'll laugh again, never again. If living was the hardest part, it's better off this way. We're singing songs that make us slit our wrists. Just give us war-worn lipstick by the door if I inflame. But this time we'll show them the hardest part is letting go of your dreams. Say good bye to escalators colder than a cell. When you go would you give me all your poison and give me a coffin your size. If this is what you want then clean the blood off your sheets; darken your clothes and strike a violent pose. If life ain't just a happy thought then why are we not afraid to keep on living? As snow falls, I'd sometimes stare for hours. And as these bright lights blind me, it gives the blind sight. As the fragments of my skull begin to fall, like the red rose on your coffin door.

 

 

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It's just a sad song at the end of the world. We'll die like star crossed lovers when we drown ourselves in misery tonight. I lied; you've worn out all your dancing shoes this time. We all go to hell. I'll forget all the diamonds you ate. We'll all lather the blood on our hands. You told me this gets harder, hear me out, would you pray for me? When I grow up I want to be nothing at all. I will be with you, I mean this forever. Stand up fucking tall, don't let them see your back and take my fucking hand. This affair is tragic with a capitol T. Did we all fall down? You can find out first hand what it's like to be me. I'm so dirty babe and if I pull this trigger. Blood, blood, gallons of the stuff, I'll wear this on my sleeve from the earth to the morgue. Heaven help us now, my lips are chapped and faded. You're running out of places. I can't find my way home; things are better if I stay, you better get out while you can. Clean me off I'm so dirty babe, wash away those tears of blood again. Let it show, u wanted me to go. Don't ever think I’ll make you try to stay. I can’t find the way to get back in your arms, but you’re probably just too good. Can we both be ugly? And as were falling down, take my hand and never be afraid again. There’s a dozen reasons to blow my brains against the ceiling when you go, go on record be the first to say I love you. Let’s give them one more reason to turn away from what I did. I don't love you, like I did yesterday. Stay, and be what you became last night, and die like star crossed lovers from the earth to the morgue.

On da first day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On da secon' day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
tuu coconuts an' won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On day terd day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in
won papaya tree.

On da foaht day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
foah flowah lei, tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an'
won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On da fif day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah lei, tree dry
squid, tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in won
papaya tree.

On da six day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
six hula lesson, FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah
lei, tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird
in won papaya tree.

On da sevent day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
seven shrimp a-swimmin', six hula lesson, FIVE BIG FAT
PIGS! Foah flowah lei, tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an'
won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On day ate day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
ate ukuleles, seven shrimp a-swimmin', six hula lesson,
FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah lei, tree dry squid,
tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On the nint day of Chrsitmas my Tutu gave to me
nine pounds of poi, ate ukuleles, seven shrimp a-swimmin',
six hula lesson, FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah lei,
tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in won
papaya tree.

On da tent day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
ten cans of beer, nine pound of poi, ate ukuklele, seven
shrimp a-swimmin', six hula lesson, FIVE BIG FAT PIGS!
Foah flowah lei, tree dry squid, tuu coconuts,
an' won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On da elevent day of Christmas my Tut gave to me
eleven missionary, ten can of beer, nine pound of poi,
ate ukulele, seven shrimp a-swimmin', six hula lesson,
FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah lei, tree dry squid,
tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in won papaya tree.

On da twelf day of Christmas my Tutu gave to me
twelve TELEVISION, eleven missionary, ten can of beer,
nine pound of poi, ate ukulele, seven shrimp a-swimmin',
six hula lesson, FIVE BIG FAT PIGS! Foah flowah lei,
tree dry squid, tuu coconuts, an' won mynah bird in won
papaya tree.

[damn. I'll post the Night Before Chrsitmas in pidgin when I find it. I know i had. God fuck lol.]

Mele Kalikimaka!

[Merry Christmas]

From your one and only Hawaiian rocker! Best wishes to you all. I hope you and your families have a great and warm holiday season!

xoxo,

Kayce [Kamalani]

Hau'oli Makahiki Hou!

[Happy New Years]